i have a confession to make. yes, alwyn has a confession.this thing has been running in my mind for many years now and i think its time to come out of the closet and admit it.(long sigh of breath).. here it goes, i have an addiction. yes you heard me correctly, i have an additiction and it runs deep like a the straits of malacca. i dont even know where to began from. i guess it was about 7 years ago in the year 1999, my friend brought me to have an experience.it was one i will never forget, i got my first hook there and then. wen i got hooked, it felt so good. i felt almost delirious with the pure raw excitement of joy that it gave me back then.
running back prior a few months before i got my first hook, i was a boring old dull person. not that im any more interesting now compared to then. there was a total lack of liveliness in me. life felt nonsensical and living each day was like just a boring old day to day routine of waking up, studies, back home, studies and then sleeping. there was such a sense of hopelessness and dissapointment in life itself.now fast forward back to my first hook.i know knew what the meaning of joy was.my sense of living was now being filled and i felt lifted up. it almost felt like walking on clouds and there was a sense of freedom in all that ecstasy of joy at the moment.
i really felt like running around and telling people around me how good it felt.i would have looked like a madman and people would definitely look at me in bewilderment.no.. they would never understand. i could write a million tales and dance a thousand beats to the audiences around and they would just stare.no.. they would never understand until they tried what i tried.
i dont know how long more i can keep this up.at the moment it doesnt look like im going to give up anytime soon.im glad about that and as long as i live, this addiction within me is staying.
now let me just clarify things here a little, my little addiction is this thing i call the “love of christ” and my first “hook” was the salvation i received many years back then. that sense of joy and peace came when He took charge of my life and giving me the holy spirit which now resides within me.
frankly speaking, im glad. im glad i took that chance many years ago and im not regretting one moment of it. im living the life that many could only imagine. there is life in abundance and excitement because christ brings forth the “purpose of being” through and in me in many ways that i could never have thought of.
this brothers and sisters is my confession of a living addict.
Havent been posting in quite a while now. At last I’m at least connected online.. so can do some short posting.
I have finally STARTED my new job. IT’s great so far. Everyday’s been a new learning experience.
This season of seeking and continously seeking… much knocking, knocking, knocking.. at times a little bit of kicking plus with loads of questions in mind has brought much to look forward to.
God’s open doors can come in many ‘forms’ , possibly at times a metal door and sometimes just a crack through a wall.. or even at times a sliding door. No matter what, He will always provide a way to open the door and many times the choice is left to us to pick which one to open.
Favor with the Lord puts us in an unfair position to reap more than what we would have to plough our hands into.
Here ye’, here ye…
this years “The Acts Church“ production is proud to PRESENT (drum rolls..)
Showtimes:
Dec 23, Sunday – 10am, 5pm
Dec 25, Tuesday – 10am
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This is what Ive been up to lately. Check out the blog, lots of interesting stuff there. The production is based on the story of Joseph, a man from humble depressing beginnings who rose to great stature despite seemingly impossible circumstances.
In the midst of revamping the site. Due to not having a connection at home, its been hard finding time to update this site. Will have more things coming soon. In the midst of a ‘transitions’, many transitions…
I guess its when we’re in times of seeking and asking where the answers dont’ come yet we’re desperately calling out. That’s where we come to a place of silence and then it becomes clear, that HE was speaking all along… What are we listening?
Just thought of posting some shots of the place i work in.Behind the pool is the Bistro where we have our morning breakfast and yumchar sessions. This is what I look forward to everyday… This is what keeps me going day after day at work. This is my life for the next 1 year. haha.. jk. God is good. His providence is never lacking and always sufficient. The right things will come in at the right time.
these past few weeks have been hectic for me looking at new responsibilities especially in my new job scope. im currently known as a “Solutions Specialist” dealing in IBM products. Lots to learn and not much time given. Even past few days have been place in project locations to do some project implementation. Thats the reason for not blogging.
At the same time aligning myself ‘right’. I guess its always a good reminder to cross check what are we doing with our lives.. How were living it and are we actually living it. As newer things come in, theres a need to cut off some of the older stuffs just to make way. “Old dont go.. New ones dont come”. Even at this point I still miss doing the old things that I do and all my friends. At times you just stop and wonder will I have any other good times in the future. Whats ahead of me now? Am i OK?
One sentence that runs in my mind these past few weeks has been… “today is not yesterday, the yesterdays of today will never be today”. It has been a pretty rough year for me having to juggle between so many new things and new sights. Sometimes I just feel like running on auto-run and not to have a mind that wanders about…
Eventhough so,in the midst of it all.God nvr fails to amaze with His lil wonders and surprises along the way. Like how he gave me favor with my seniors and actually being able to work quite well with them up till now. Which is great after all the horror tales… In addition, He includes some tidbits like the nice dinner I had past few days ago at a nice restaurant. Food and food as far as u can see and as u can order. That was just superb. Never had so much to eat in my entire life. All this things He puts just at the right time and right place..for wat?? To give me that extra push.. that extra motivation…that keeps me going day after day wanting to give Him my praises ever more ever true.
At the end of the day, I just come to my knees and realize that my God is just right, just there… just so AMAZING!! Am looking forward to great things ahead of me with Him by my side.hehe..
P/s:- i just realised my article was cut short so i re-added the ending.haha..�
Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses. (1 Timothy 6:12, ESV)
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